It's been a wild couple of months out in Sydney, Australia being a beat maker and producer. I am grateful for all the gigs I've been able to perform at and the people who book me. During the lead-up to a gig, for some reason, I always have this obsession with creating a new piece of material, creating new beats to play so I don't feel like I'm always playing the same thing or getting stuck. This heavy weight of pressure on my shoulders is both negative and positive. The positive is that I reap the benefits of a great new tune (most of the time), but the pressure I apply to myself is a very high level of self critique, I am always looking to up my game or bring something fresh to the table.
The negative effect of this, because of the stage I am at in my music career (i cant just wake up and make music all day) is that I enter a flow state—a state where I'm not "here" anymore. I can't converse, interact, settle, or do "normal" human things. My whole being is in creation mode like a mad scientist, which is so beautiful and I thank the world and universe for this gift and talent I have. Consciously and continuously I choose to grow every day, but at the same time I leave everything else unanswered, unfinished, and things end up on a large platter of things to do.
I'm ready to enjoy some quiet time and focus on just being me again, to realign my spiritual side, and to feel and enjoy life a little. This is such a good way to breathe and create new ideas, to properly strategize the next few moves, and to plan out some new releases. This balance is so important, and I myself have forgotten this, so I definitely need to practice what I think about every day and be right within myself and true to myself.
I guess what im trying to say is don't ever forget the balance.